NOW I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF TEXTING WITH THE 2 CLOSEST PEOPLE TO ME RIGHT NOW. THE 21 YEAR OLD ACROSS THE COUNTRY THAT IS 'BANGING' A CUTE GIRL HIS AGE WHILE CALLING ME TO TALK ALMOST EVERY DAY AND THE NEW FRIEND I MADE THIS PAST MONTH THAT SEEMS REALLY PROMISING, BUT MAY BE TOTALLY FUCKING CRAZY AND ONE MORE PERSON TO PROVE MY THEORY ABOUT WHAT I'M WORTH FRIEND-WISE.
ANYWAY, TODAY IS MY LAST DAY OF WORK, AND I'M FEELING ALL RIGHT, COMPARATIVELY. I STILL OBSESS ABOUT MY EX, BUT AT LEAST IT'S ONLY BEEN 8 MONTHS SINCE THE OFFICIAL BREAK UP AND I STILL HAVE HALF AS LONG AS THAT TO RECOOPERATE ENOUGH TO FEEL LIKE I'VE MOVED ON. I HAVE A LOT OF SEWING TO LOOK FORWARD TO, MONEY-WISE AND JUST AS IMPORTANTLY, FAMILY-HOLIDAY-WISE. I AM SOOOOO GRATEFUL FOR MY FAMILY, AND AM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT STRENGTHENING MY TIES WITH EXTENDED FAMILY THANKS TO FACEBOOK AND SO FORTH. OH, AND THE THING WITH ______... I'M REALLY AT THE POINT WHERE I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO CUT HIM LOOSE, OTHERWISE I'M NO BETTER THAN A MISTRESS THAT SAYS, 'OH, BUT HE LOVES ME'... FOR ONE THING, IT'S NOT FAIR TO HIS GF, AND FOR ANOTHER, IT'S NOT FAIR TO THE NEXT AWESOME GUY I MEET THAT I WON'T GIVE ALL MY ATTENTION TO BECAUSE I'M GLUED TO THE PHONE WITH A KID TALKING ABOUT DICK JOKES 90% OF THE TIME. OH, AND IF WE BOTH DO END UP AT NYE TOGETHER, I CAN'T GO DOWN THERE HAVING JUST KEPT IN TOUCH WITH HIM NON-STOP SINCE AUGUST. THE BREAK IS NECESSARY SO I DON'T BECOME PATHETIC AND THROW MYSELF AT HIM.
I GUESS I HAVE TO OUTRIGHT BREAK UP WITH HIM. HE MAY FEEL HURT IN THE MEANTIME, BUT IT WILL BE A GREAT LEARNING LESSON FOR HIM THAT HE NEEDS TO RESPECT THE PERCEPTIONS OF THOSE THAT ARE RELIANT ON HIM THAT HE CONTINUES TO BENEFIT FROM. HE'S A GOOD KID AND HE SHOULD STAY THAT WAY. I DON'T WANT TO ENCOURAGE BULLSHIT.
