classic borderline behavior

cnn: '...the classic borderline behavior is to feel smothered by intimacy whenever others come close and to feel completely terrified about being abandoned if they move back. A classic borderline move is to dump anyone who wants you and cling desperately to anyone who wants to get away from you.'

anyway, here i was worrying yesterday that ____ may end up liking me too much, and just today i freaked for a moment when i, out of a feeling of obligation, texted him about hanging out soon, expected him to put me on the spot as far as making the decision whether to hang out today or tomorrow, and instead texted he is busy and will call tomorrow. i mean, i'm thinking, 'what if he can tell i'm not that into him, and his ego is bruised, and he's distancing himself'. 'what if,' i thought, 'he thinks i'm a jerk because he's been so generous and nice, and here i am acting like a opportunist.' and so on and so on. jesus, if he calls tomorrow and is at all eager or happy on the phone, i'll swing right back to feeling trapped. i have some serious work to do. i'm just glad i know it!