CRACKING MY HEAD

HOLY SHIT, I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING! THAT GUY I HAD SEX WITH THAT GOT REALLY MAD AT ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T TELL HIM SOMETHING I SHOULD HAVE... WHEN I RAN INTO HIM RECENTLY HE MENTIONED SOMETHING ABOUT 'CRACKING MY HEAD' AS BEING ONE OF THE ISSUES OF THAT NIGHT, OBVIOUSLY GLOSSING OVER AND NOT MENTIONING 'LOSING HIS HARD-ON'.

NOW, I DIDN'T HOLD IT AGAINST HIM, AND FOR SURE BLAMED IT ON THE C-DOM AND GAVE HIM THE ABSOLUTE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT THAT IT WASN'T AN ISSUE WITH HIM (WHEN IN FACT I FIGURED IT WAS PROBABLY NOT THE C-DOM BUT INSTEAD DUE TO THE FACT THAT I JUST WASN'T THAT INTO IT AND HIS DICK COULD PROBABLY PICK UP ON THAT). HOWEVER, IT JUST DAWNED ON ME THERE IS A POSSIBILITY THAT IS ONE OF THE REASONS HE REACTED AS SEVERELY AS HE DID. AND THAT'S GREAT, BECAUSE HERE I'VE BEEN BEATING MYSELF UP PARTLY DUE TO HIS RESPONSE, WHEN ALL THE WHILE HE'S PROBABLY SUPER EMBARRESSED. HE DID TELL ME HE HAS NEVER JUST HOOKED UP LIKE THAT BEFORE, SO OVERALL, IT MUST HAVE BEEN PREETY TRUMATIC, EVEN BEFORE HE REALIZED I DIDN'T TELL HIM WHAT I SHOULD HAVE.

ANYWAY, I FEEL SLIGHTLY BETTER, BECAUSE I KNOW NOW THAT HIS EXTREME REACTION MOST LIKELY WASN'T JUST DUE TO THE MAGNITUDE OF MY MISGIVING. OF COURSE, WHAT I DID WAS REALLY BAD, AND A TOTAL MISTAKE THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED... HOWEVER, LIKE I HAVE MENTIONED TO OTHERS I'VE DISCUSSED THIS WITH, HIS REACTION WAS THE MOST UPSETTING EVER. NOW I HAVE ADDITIONAL INSIGHT INTO WHY THAT MAY BE, AND THEREFORE AS A RESULT FEEL LIKE I CAN ACTUALLY MOVE ON FROM BEATING MYSELF UP ABOUT THIS AND JUST NOT MAKE THAT SAME MISTAKE AGAIN, AND FORGIVE MYSELF FOR HAPPENING TO BE PART OF THAT GUY'S INEVITABLE LEARNING LESSON.