he is not mine

____ does not belong to me. when i saw that woman flirting with him last week, i got really mad, just as much as when he was my boyfriend. i have zero claim to him now, yet i FELT like i did.

that's what bothering me so much about finding that ad yesterday... the person who posted it was wanting what i feel to be MINE. but it ISN'T! i have to let go. i have to let go. i have to let go. i spent so long holding onto him and swatting away woman after woman to keep my hold over him as safe as i could. then i got angry that he wasn't helping me keep my hold safe. i then swatted with venenge and anger and spite. i felt my hold on him slipping, so i became more desparate. i lived day in and day out knowing my hold was all but gone, and here were the swarms desending on us, tearing him away while the whole time my clinging was only pushing instead. then he was gone, and my spite has remained. i need to let it go. i am alone except for that spite. better to be alone without that than with. it serves no purpose. i have no control over the swarms now even if i ever did then. there is absolutely no way for me to keep him away from all of them. nothing that will convince him to decide to stay away from them and either remain alone or long for me. nothing.