oh yeah, and there's this...

i should mention: i did well in school because i had something to prove to ______. i imagined showing him i did an amazing job despite him not supporting me or believing in me. then: i did well when i decided to throw my self into the lifestyle ______ introduced me once he left. i imagined his reaction to witnessing my creations, and made things with his opinions in mind. i wanted to show him i could be what he wanted now that it was impossible that we would ever be together again. now: i will keep in mind the discrimination and self-righteousness ____ displayed throughout my time with him, and i will mix that with what i know about him to be correct as far as his knowledge, taste, and education. i will surpass all that he has ever expected from me, and i will do so knowing that it is impossible that he and i could ever have an intimate moment alone ever again.