hung up

WOW. NOW I'M ALL HUNG UP. YET AGAIN. JESUS. I MUST BE THE MOST FUCKING ANNOYING I DON'T KNOW WHAT. DOESN'T MATTER. I AM JUST FEELING MORE NUMB THAN ANYTHING. I JUST HOPE I CAN NOT FEEL DEPRESSED. FUCK TRYING FOR HAPPY. I JUST CRASH. NO... I'LL JUST HOLD ON UNTIL SOMETHING BIG CHANGES. IF IT TAKES A LOT OF LITTLE THINGS UNTIL I SEE A MAJOR IMPROVEMENT, THAT WORKS. NOT LOOKING FOR A MIRACLE. JUST WANT SOME PEACE FOR NOW. YEAH. DONE WITH LAME BULLSHIT. DONE WITH REGRESSING... WAIT. THAT'S A LIE. I AM NEVER DONE WITH BULLSHIT. I CREATE IT WHENEVER I CAN. NO MATTER. I KNEW THIS WAS NO GOOD. NOW I FEEL OBLIGATED AND NEEDY AT THE SAME TIME. FORMULA FOR CLINGY AND ANNOYING. JESUS. DONE I GUESS. DONE. DONE. DONE.