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I AM FINDING MYSELF UPSET AT THE IDEA OF _______ NOT GETTING BACK TO ME. IGNORING ME. DONE WITH ME. BUT I WASN'T THAT INTO HIM!!! I AM FALLING INTO THIS IDEALIZATION, AND I'M FALLING INTO THIS PIT WHERE I PRETEND TO MYSELF I WILL FEEL SAFE AND COMFORTABLE AND LOVED IF I CAN SUSTAIN HIS ATTENTION. BUT THE THING IS, IF HE WERE TO SPLIT, THAT LEAVES OPEN THE POSSIBILITY OF SOMEONE I REALLY AM INTO. _______ IS PRETTY GREAT, BUT THERE ARE CERTAIN FACTORS THAT ARE LACKING. AND HERE I AM A WEEK INTO THIS GETTING ALL RILED UP! THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I SHOULDN'T BE DOING MORE THAN GOING ON DATES.

ANYWAY, I COULD BE PRETTY WRONG ABOUT THIS WORST CASE SCENARIO IN MY HEAD, SO IT'S BEST TO WORK ON BEING OK NOT SEEING OR HEARING FROM ONE ANOTHER FOR DAYS AND DAYS IN A ROW. I REALLY NEED TO STRENGTHEN THAT. IT IS EXACTLY WHAT GOT ME ALL FREAKED OUT WHILE I WAS WITH ____.