no one

is it just me that feels utterly alone. disconnected not only from those i presumely should feel bonds with... such as my family, my religion, my friends... but disconnected from everyone!? and not just teenage or 20 something rebellion, but full fledged lack of bonding, faith, connective-ness, no matter.

sore throat

months later, i'm here. rambling to no one, but at the same time hoping that all it takes is one random viewer to justify this. no matter, the imaginary audience of one or more in my head as i write this is more than enough. i often wonder who is it that has a huge following on a random blog such as this. do they 'campaign' their page, link to others equally as needy for fans? or does the oft followed personal diary type blogs prosper on fully personally resonating terms? in other words, does the most thought out, heart wrenching, soul searching diction stand out on it's own 2 feet, or does cheap marketing take place?