good things do happen

whoa. good things do happen to good people. doing the right thing and following one's gut pays off! it's not just the assholes and liars and theives that get what they want. i'm not a sucker! lately, it really has felt like the more i trust and hope, the more i'm fooling myself. but that's not so. it's like this: 1) don't give away one's trust, but rather know there are those in the world deserving of it and save it for them. 2) it's ok to do the right thing. the most important consequence is how your conscience feels after the fact. if you get something for nothing, and it costs someone else who doesn't deserve to have to pay, then step up. otherwise, you'll end up paying in the long run in addition to that unfortunate, used soul you fucked over. and don't worry about things not working out if you're honest. you need to be honest no matter what happens in the short run. it takes courage to face the unknown, and it takes humility to deal with outcomes as they are. the reward will be a lesson well learned and future situations well-lived. 3) to get what you want in this life, one need not lower themselves to the level of the sick sociopaths who are capable of cutting off all human emotion. they suffer in ways that you could never dream, so do not envy their shortcomings. their benefits are shallow and will only breed cesspools of more sickness down the line.

so what i want to know is, "if good things do happen to good people, is it ok to still have a part of you that wallows in the enjoyment derived from hoping bad things happen to bad people?"